I feel so down
So distant from the surroundings
The people near by pass me.
I stand still while the whole world moves fast.
No one to talk to, no shoulder to cry on.
Just want someone, that one person, who I can.
I just feel a burden
To put all my emotions on someone.
It isn't fair and I can't do such thing.
Instead I bottle it up, til I explode.
Hoping I shed tears to the correct person.
The one who actually cares.
I don't know anymore
What to do about this.
What to say, what to do.
I just want to be with you.
I have no reasons for the way I feel.
I just do feel that way.
It scares me how good I am,
How good I can put on a mask
And hide the way I feel.
I can lie so easily.
No one has to know the truth.
Of what I once did.
No one knows what runs through the head of a murder.
What drives them to do the things they do.
Why they feel the need to harm another.
Was it something their parents did?
Or is it something wrong in their brain?
I guess psychologists will learn one day.
But who knows if it is to late.
Who knows what might happen one day.
Will one person change history again?
It's like you're not so bothered anymore
You are metaphorically hiding behind the door
You want me to move on from it
Well I can't. I just want us to get chairs and sit
We can talk about what has happened to me
You want me to get over it, but I can't find the key
to do this. You need to help me find my way
But the problem is you don't even know what to say
I am looking at you for that support I need.
So I hope you see this poem and read.
.... I shouldn't... I will. by tashalianne-x, literature
Literature
.... I shouldn't... I will.
i know i shouldn't
that doing this is wrong
but i feel i need to
my only way to cope
i have it in my hand
ready to this damage
only fear of what others may think
what if i slip
what if i miss
who knows what could happen
maybe their wish will come true
that they won't ever hear
from me again
or that i'll be in that place
locked away
away til the end
So alone
So trapped
No where to go
Everyones gone
they've moved on
I want a hug
I need someone
to hear what i have to say
Im not over it yet
Please help me forget
i need your help
i need the support
I want to let go
I feel so down
The sky will brighten by tashalianne-x, literature
Literature
The sky will brighten
Please don't worry
Please don't cry
Hope is awaiting
Just be patient
Things will begin to make senses
Things will become clearer
You will realise who matters
And who doesn't
You'll find your love
And become closer with friends
Teenage years are hard
But life gets easier
Embarrassing situations
Take over your world
You think its the end that you lost a friend
But better ones come along.
The sky will brighten
You will realise
That life isn't all bad
You can breath easy
And relax, smile and laugh
Trust... Can it be trusted? by tashalianne-x, literature
Literature
Trust... Can it be trusted?
Siitting there in the field
With friends
You think you can trust them
But can you really?
You tell your friends too much
They could tell anyone
Sadly some do
They could kill your reputation
Spread rumours, which are true
I forget who you can trust
Because you can't trust
You need to find other ways of telling your secrets
Because people talk
Too long i trusted
And lost the trust
But poetry has helped
I feel so down
So distant from the surroundings
The people near by pass me.
I stand still while the whole world moves fast.
No one to talk to, no shoulder to cry on.
Just want someone, that one person, who I can.
I just feel a burden
To put all my emotions on someone.
It isn't fair and I can't do such thing.
Instead I bottle it up, til I explode.
Hoping I shed tears to the correct person.
The one who actually cares.
I don't know anymore
What to do about this.
What to say, what to do.
I just want to be with you.
I have no reasons for the way I feel.
I just do feel that way.
It scares me how good I am,
How good I can put on a mask
And hide the way I feel.
I can lie so easily.
No one has to know the truth.
Of what I once did.
No one knows what runs through the head of a murder.
What drives them to do the things they do.
Why they feel the need to harm another.
Was it something their parents did?
Or is it something wrong in their brain?
I guess psychologists will learn one day.
But who knows if it is to late.
Who knows what might happen one day.
Will one person change history again?
It's like you're not so bothered anymore
You are metaphorically hiding behind the door
You want me to move on from it
Well I can't. I just want us to get chairs and sit
We can talk about what has happened to me
You want me to get over it, but I can't find the key
to do this. You need to help me find my way
But the problem is you don't even know what to say
I am looking at you for that support I need.
So I hope you see this poem and read.
.... I shouldn't... I will. by tashalianne-x, literature
Literature
.... I shouldn't... I will.
i know i shouldn't
that doing this is wrong
but i feel i need to
my only way to cope
i have it in my hand
ready to this damage
only fear of what others may think
what if i slip
what if i miss
who knows what could happen
maybe their wish will come true
that they won't ever hear
from me again
or that i'll be in that place
locked away
away til the end
So alone
So trapped
No where to go
Everyones gone
they've moved on
I want a hug
I need someone
to hear what i have to say
Im not over it yet
Please help me forget
i need your help
i need the support
I want to let go
I feel so down
The sky will brighten by tashalianne-x, literature
Literature
The sky will brighten
Please don't worry
Please don't cry
Hope is awaiting
Just be patient
Things will begin to make senses
Things will become clearer
You will realise who matters
And who doesn't
You'll find your love
And become closer with friends
Teenage years are hard
But life gets easier
Embarrassing situations
Take over your world
You think its the end that you lost a friend
But better ones come along.
The sky will brighten
You will realise
That life isn't all bad
You can breath easy
And relax, smile and laugh
Well mum made me get there early. So we arrived at half 8. They weighed me and measured my height and took my blood pressure. My doctor was late. He is german. Then when he finally arrived he spent ages reading my notes :L Then I went in and we blahhhhh blahhh blahhh'd on about random things. Then he checked me over to see how I was. He REALLY hurt my tummy :( Then he wondered off to talk to another doctor about me and mummy gave me a hug hehe (mummy :P :P ) yeah. mum. yeah. *cough*. And he came back and then randomly said oh right so we're gonna send you off to the pathology section (blood) and they took my blood!! D: I was there from half 8
Just chilling today. Watching signs... last time i watched it, i was 7. I doesn't really scare me tbh, like it does some people.. but this is the only scary film i can watch lol. im a scardy cat :L